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Jun. 8th, 2010 11:30 pmAt first I was going to filter this, and then I was just going to post it to my friends list but I don't know if that's the best way to enter this new part of my life and health so here it is. The most public private post I might ever make.
I haven't always struggled with my weight. I mean, when I was younger I was a little chubby and thought I was bigger than every one else, of course, but this is the biggest I've ever been in my life so I'd give anything to have the body I had in HS or early university. I started getting out of control in my 1st year, when I gained the frosh THIRTY. But I lost a lot of weight in the next couple of years thanks to meals prepared at the caf and a free gym (oh, to be a full time student again).
This post is about where I am with my weight, my health, my mental view of everything and some revelations I've made on the issue. I want to take this seriously. I want to do something about this because I hate feeling like this.
Read if you want, comments are appreciated. I'd like to be as open as possible in this forum where I've spoken about my life over the past seven years.
( Long post under the cut, a bit disjointed at first )
I'm unsure of where to go next as far as how to approach this. I have made resolutions to myself in the past that I won't eat any more junk and I would exercise and do this and that but this time I HAVE to do it. I have to finally grab hold of myself and snap the fuck out of it. I would like to say I'm going to post often with updates but I don't know if I will commit to that. I will try, though, because I think there are other people on my flist that would be supportive and have awesome advice. If I'm going to give this a good go I have to be accountable for myself. So I will try.
I haven't always struggled with my weight. I mean, when I was younger I was a little chubby and thought I was bigger than every one else, of course, but this is the biggest I've ever been in my life so I'd give anything to have the body I had in HS or early university. I started getting out of control in my 1st year, when I gained the frosh THIRTY. But I lost a lot of weight in the next couple of years thanks to meals prepared at the caf and a free gym (oh, to be a full time student again).
This post is about where I am with my weight, my health, my mental view of everything and some revelations I've made on the issue. I want to take this seriously. I want to do something about this because I hate feeling like this.
Read if you want, comments are appreciated. I'd like to be as open as possible in this forum where I've spoken about my life over the past seven years.
( Long post under the cut, a bit disjointed at first )
I'm unsure of where to go next as far as how to approach this. I have made resolutions to myself in the past that I won't eat any more junk and I would exercise and do this and that but this time I HAVE to do it. I have to finally grab hold of myself and snap the fuck out of it. I would like to say I'm going to post often with updates but I don't know if I will commit to that. I will try, though, because I think there are other people on my flist that would be supportive and have awesome advice. If I'm going to give this a good go I have to be accountable for myself. So I will try.
