and we frolicked about

I am clearly not at AS's wedding reception and I'm just as happy for it. Yesterday I woke up with a sore throat and sounded and felt like ass, everyone said I looked awful and my boss sent me home as soon as I went in. I had to BEG her to let me stay for a half hour just so I could tie up some loose ends and do my payroll. I got it done, filled the prescription my doc didn't want me to fill unless I had to, went home and slept for about four hours or so.

Today I'm feeling better although I'm unbalanced again today. Mom drove us to Walmart (I usually do the driving because I like to drive, I have control issues, her car smells like cigarette smoke and I don't like her driving) and I couldn't look down while we went around curves or anything because I'd feel dizzy. Walking straight is a slight issue but less so than randomly tipping over while standing still.

So no wedding reception for me, which I'm just as happy about since, as I've mentioned, I'm less than happy with the way AS has been conducting herself and H is going to be there and blah. I feel bad about leaving AD to herself, though, because we were going to be each other's dates and get drunk and ignore the fuck out of everyone. :(

I would like to get something productive done tonight--caps or icons or something-- but then I need the internet to stop distracting me.

It would also be nice if a download for Thursday's Project Runway would show up, please and thank you.

This was stolen from theladyoffaerie AGES ago. It's been chilling on my desktop forever so I finally did it.

( Scary meme )

Got my taxes done today. I didn't have to pay in and I still got back a good sum of money but the past couple years have spoiled me so it wasn't as much as I was anticipating. Still not going to look a gift horse in the mouth. I bought some much needed bras, a pair of $11 sparkly shoes and filled my gas tank. The rest I'll divide between student loan and my credit card.

I'm still constantly mulling over the friend issue. I AM upset but, I don't know. I just didn't want to end things so poorly but I can't make her NOT angry so whatever. That I'm not heartbroken says a lot. She knew this wouldn't end well when she sent the note. She had to have. But life goes on, the world continues to revolve and I have a pair of sparkly fucking shoes.

I kind of want to do something creative so I'd like to do maybe a fanmix thing.

Comment here with a pairing or character from a show we're both into and I'll do my best to make a mini fanmix for them. If I get really creative maybe I'll make some graphics for them, too! Maybe.

Valid shows/fandoms:
TVD
Misfits
KStew/Rpattz
Sons of Anarchy
Doctor Who
Maybe Community? But probably characters only, no pairings. Better have a second suggestion on this one.
Something else? Give me a go if you think I'm into it, I can't remember if there's more fandoms I like.

I also want to do this lurker meme that's popped up a couple times today on my flist:

Today has been declared lurker amnesty day! Have you read me but never commented? Do you surf by occasionally? Here for the fic? Say hello! You are under no obligation to ever comment or delurk again, but here's a chance to do so in a post just for that.

I also posted icons!

20 x Elena Gilbert icons for cw20in20
11 x Elena Gilbert alternates & other icons
09 x Doctor Who
05 x Misc
04 x Being Human UK
04 x Chloe Mortez
03 x White Collar
02 x Ian Somerhalder
02 x Rachel McAdams



See all 59 here at morbid_girls.

Sometimes it really just cuts you to the quick when someone you know in real life falls in love with a show you've been into for a long time. It's hard to share that with someone you know just WON'T GET IT.

/selfish, first-world, Friday night problems

In other news Firefox is being a downright cunt and has been crashing on me when I'm not even using it so I've got Chrome open, too. Maybe I'll make the switch. I dunno.

Anyway. Time for bed.

--> There are two attractive young men helping my uncle tear the siding off the house. They have been working for a few days now. Today I came home to hear music coming from upstairs, where only I reside. In my room is now a GIANT hole where my window and wall WAS and instead was scaffolding, my uncle and the two aforementioned attractive young men. In my room/window/just outside. My room where I have a life-size standee of Bella, Jacob and Edward from new moon, a full garbage can and dirty underwear in the clothes basket.

*sigh*

Oh, and? I'm going to have plywood over the giant hole for possibly a few weeks. UGH.

--> Y'know, if you're going to crosspost icons and then not post teasers because of spoilers but half of your icons are facial close ups and completely unidentifiable from any other episode of the show... just don't. Post teasers.

--> We had a couple young people pass away so their obits were in our paper. They prompted my supervisor to ask us today what we thought we would look like in heaven. I said people would probably look like how they did when they were happiest in their lives. Which made me think about the concept of heaven and afterlife and I realized when I think about "after" it's a rather murky place. Not in feeling or to prompt fear but more as a waiting area. Not purgatory, just... kind of like waiting in line at some government office. Boring and tedious, than anything. And then I'll come back. I don't want to say be reincarnated because I'm not spiritual like that but I truly believe that I'll come back in my next life, and the next and etc, etc.

I can't say why I think this because I really don't know. It's just a feeling I have. And it pisses me off because, to be honest, I don't WANT to come back. I don't want to fade into non-existance or anything but the idea that I'm going to come back and have to relive things at this point seems so tiring.

There's no reason for writing this, I just wanted to record it for my own thoughts since it was a bit of a realization today. I believe that whatever people believe in is exactly what will happen for them in life/after life, so yeah.

--> Had some weirdness today over an email from a friend. It's something I've been trying to figure out how to deal with for a few months now but didn't realize I was still SO bothered by until he sent me a slap-dash email today. It brought all my kinda-anger back up so now I have to think about what I'm going to say to explain why I'm angry and how to do it in a way that doesn't make me seem crazy. Boys.

--> Started watching Community on Sunday night and finished first season Monday evening. LOVED IT! It was so funny! I lawled numerous times and enjoyed myself a lot. I'm also an episode into Modern Family, too, and I would be continuing it tonight if, like, I could go into my room and all.

Sorry for the people I didn't get to with the snowflake cookies. I didn't think it would still be around by Wednesday but I hoped maybe tonight, at least.

THANK YOU to everyone who sent me one, the number is far more than I ever expected and it's been a great pick-me-up to see the notifications come in. *cuddles everyone*

I think I am going to do the icon Christmas thing I wanted to do but they might turn into New Years icons depending on the time I get to work on everything. But I don't want to say what I'm going to do just yet in case things go belly up.

Today was interesting. Not in a bad way but it's amazing how there are people in the world that, just by existing, can make you hate something because they ruin everything. My friends deserve better.

I got the entire That 70's Show series for $70 tonight. *GLEE* I'm not a big fan of the last couple seasons but I LOVE THE SHOW SO MUCH and the box set is so cute and it was SO CHEAP so I had to get it. I've wanted it for a while since I saw how much I could get it for at cost so I'm jazzed. I should open it. Also, I got HP6 so YAY! I spent too much money on my CC but whatever, dvds.

It's fucking COLD. -30 can BITE ME.

OH OH OH! AND IS GOSSIP GIRL REALLY NOT COMING THE FUCK BACK UNTIL MARCH?!?! WTF?!?!?!?

Has TwitterFox been down for anyone else ALL DAY? Of course. AS SOON AS I post about it the damn thing comes back.

I meant to do so many productive things this weekend. And I guess I kind of did.

** three loads of laundry, including washing some blankets.

** went to the gym yesterday and did my longest session since the accident in June.

** went to Walmart for groceries and bought a new DVD player as the portable player I've been using as my main one is SUCKING THE SHWANG.

** posted some icon/texture recs here at morbid_girls

** spent a BUTTLOAD of time planning and eating as I'm keeping track of my calories and fat grams now, as per my new meal plan from my dietitian. I'm going to try to be as good as possible this week because pipry23 is coming home for a visit on Friday and requested a Pizza Hut meal so that will be my treat.

** started reading The Strain by Guillermo Del Toro and Chuck Hogan.

** watched a buttload of movies.

So I guess it could have been worse?

I don't know when tonight's Harper's Island caps will be up. I usually can't download it until Friday but this weekend is going to be MAD. pipry23 is coming home! So for the next four days I don't know what the hell is going on. Party on Saturday, doing things tomorrow, etc, etc.

I'd like to get to at least 12,000 on my BigBang tonight, which I can SO do as I'm already at 11,029 right now but the next week is going to be HARD and weird trying to get it done. But I'm going to try my damnest, especially since I really think I can wrap this sucker up in 8000 words, maybe a little more. YAY!

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* Comment and credit if taking/using.
* The biggie- NO HOTLINKING. Don't be a bastard and make me replace my sample caps with a bright and gaudy "I'm a thief, ask me how!" message.

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Don't know if anyone will bite on this but:

The problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other.

So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Or something completely random. Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you!

AND. For people who have attended or know how a Creation Con works: right now the gold packages are up for grabs for the Vancouver con.

When will the other packages/general admittance tickets go on sale? If I were to purchase general admittance is it rush seating or assigned? It would be wise to buy photo ops right now before they sell out, even if we don't have tickets?

Oh second job, you are looking very likely in a couple months.

Work stuff is happening, family stuff is happening. None of it incredibly bad but it's enough that my eye has been twitching for about three weeks now. It did it back in August as well. I don't feel overly stressed but it could be that ever-present stress that I don't even notice anymore.

Perhaps I'll use my day off with pay next week and take a long weekend or something. That might be nice. I get one a month!

I want to do fannish things but I'm just so tired now. Tonight I went out for dinner with a bff. Tomorrow I have kick boxing. Thursday I'll be home but SPN will be on. FRIDAY. FRIDAY, I LOVE YOU. I have nothing that night. And then Saturday I'll be at My Bloody Valentine IN MY MOOSEHEAD SHIRT. (I think only pipry23 will really get it)

I HAVE to start thinking about what I'm writing for Big Bang OMG. I HAVE to do BB again. I have ideas, I just don't know what....

Anyway.

Baking party = +1

Mari = -1 right now, because I've eaten TOO MUCH and feel a little ill.

I'm also SOOOOOO tired right now, and have to go to Ron James in about 12 hours and am covered in cooking... stuff and there's booze bottles everywhere and this month is soooo busy but IT'S OKAY. I feel like the belle of the ball right now, and it's okay!

Mmm, sleep is nice. And in the morning left over pizza and so many cookies and like two billion chocolate covered peanut butter balls (seriously, like 4 pans of them) and carrot cake and EVERYTHING.

I could sleep right here... zzzzzz.

The results of tonight's movie night?

Nick Jonas has GIANT BALLS.

I want to save the leavings for the over.

And, finally, the crowning moment:

It's Supernatural how Jared's Flight of the Pheonix only takes a New York Minute. He'll stay with us Gilmore Girls in our House of Wax because it's cheaper by the Dozen. From there we'll travel on Friday the 13th to his Christmas Cottage.

And not to be left out:

Jensen will ask his Bloody Valentine to Devour his Ten Inch Hero.

My friends are awesome.