and we frolicked about

Started back at physio for a recommended course over the next six weeks. We'll see how it goes. I meet with my lawyer on Monday to decide my course of action. Part of me hopes we settle because I could use the money right now but on the other hand this is my long-term health so I can't be rash. Although it's almost been a year and a half so who knows?

Real life is stressful right now. Work is busier than I know what to do with. I don't feel... stressed but I am. If that makes ANY sense. My eye has started twitching and I've been seeing bugs out of the corner of my eye for a while now. I can't afford to go to therapy right now, either. And student loan (wrote stupid loan at first, hello not-so-sub-subconscious!) is deciding my monetary fate right now. I don't know what I'm going to do if they decide I should be able to pay them, say, $200 a month, when over half my income is from commission and they'll be basing the payment amount on ONE month of my reported income. Fuckers. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it, which should be in the next few days. Settling with on my accident won't make a dent in my student loan so it won't help that way. But it could help my credit card out, depending on how much I could get. I don't know. UGH.

Other things are stressful, too, but I've got too much else on my plate to deal with it right now. And I don't want to. So I won't. *sticks out tongue at other things*

Being a grown up sometimes blows monkey chunks. But for the most part I'm just taking things one day at a time and looking forward to the small things. New The Vampire Diaries tomrrow, then the weekend. Harry Potter in less than a month and that's when I'm taking a day off, too. Then our Christmas party and by then things at work should hopefully have died down a bit, although then we'll be stressing about Christmas features, so maybe I shouldn't count my chickens yet, right?

One day at a time.

In other news, I had words last night in the form of a ficlet for a comment meme at vd_rpf (the only big irk I have with this fandom is that people don't abbreviate to the full title THE Vampire Diaries, so just Vampire Diaries is VD and no one wants that. Well, I don't.)

Title: Breaking the Fourth Wall
Pairing: Nina Dobrev/Steven R. McQueen
Rating: PG-13
Words: 445, unbeta'd
Disclaimer: *does not know, means no harm, plz to not be suing*
Summary:"This is so wrong," Steven gasped as Nina pushed him down the hallway.
A/N: Written in response to this comment by lavendergaia. What I would give to be able to write something, anything, more often than once every six months. Positive thoughts and crossed fingers!

( Breaking the Fourth Wall )

( The Match Game )

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( The Match Game )

Title: when you finally know just how low, low, low
Pairing: Stefan/Elena
Rating: R
Words: 730-ish, unbeta'd
Warnings: potential dubcon? I tried to write around it but there is some definite overtones for it. If dubcon squicks you it might be best to keep going.
Disclaimer: no harm, no foul, don't own.
Summary:Betraying everyone's trust was probably the hottest part.
A/N:This fic represets so many things, especially right now. Not only is it the first fic I'm writing in The Vampire Diaries fandom but it's the first fic I've written since my spn_j2_bigbang last summer. I make no illusions about the quality of this. I'm mostly just so proud that I had an idea and saw it through from start to finish. It's short, unbeta'd and was written at 1am after I had an image from it pop into my head while trying to sleep. I've also never really identified anything in any of my fics as dubcon (that I can remember, anyway) so that's new, too.

I feel like saying something almost formal-like here because this IS my first TVD fic, as bad as it (probably?) is. A grand ribbon cutting? A ceremonial parade? Ah, fuck it. If you like it great. If not, keep going and maybe next time it'll work out.

( when you finally know just how low, low, low )

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